Better times and make-overs from the past

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The days have turned into weeks and now months as I sit here waiting for any labor help with good references to catch up on their backlogs. It's hard to believe that there is a severe recession upon us but perhaps those people with a good work ethic, skill and pride in their work will never run out of work, no matter what.

Terry and I had accomplished some wonderful make-overs together in the past and although he would say "You are the mechanic, the visionary, the carpenter - I am just the brawn so hand me that wrecking bar and tell me when to stop", he had developed so many skills and a laudable finesse over the years we were together. He was truly a man who could have mastered anything he set his mind to, an impossible act to follow when I look for hired help now. It doesn't help that the few times when we contracted out a task, we often ended up doing it over again ourselves after paying shamelessly high amounts for very shoddy work.

So we'll look back at brighter times; I will take you for a tour of our last project in the home we sold to move to NM. It's a warm and quiet Sunday here and I'm in the mood to wander back into very satisfying memories.

Below is the dining room of the old place as it was when we first moved in. It was a lifeless room done in the long-faded pop culture flavors of the 70s. Neither of us spent much time in there, just threw in some antiques to get them out of the unheated barn really.
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The four soul-less Anderson windows had always bothered me. I was inclined to more interesting fenestration, especially in a 100 year old house as this one was. With this modern arrangement, all I saw was four lash-less glaring eyeballs staring back at me. And while pricey barn board may still have its comfortable place, I prefer it where it belongs ... outside, on an old barn.

Oddly enough though, it was that plastic-bumpered metal spiral staircase on the left of this photo that initiated a make-over after an unsettling incident which could have claimed my life except for the help of strong unseen hands. Then, after hearing stories from the original owner about greasing the heads of small children who had become lodged in the iron balusters, it seemed a good idea to eliminate this ugly hazard once and for all.
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Since we both had a great fondness for Medieval, Gothic and Renaissance styles, we decided that our last room make-over would be a fun and whimsical exercise ... but done on a shoestring budget as usual. Oddly enough, as soon as we decided to do it, suitable furniture, lighting and accessories started to show up at yard sales and on serious retail clearance so I was already having a blast before it had even begun.
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Above: Here is the same room view as the first but after we finished the project.

The project started with Terry carefully removing the fake box beams from the ceiling and the barn board from the walls. Then he cut and hung drywall over the exposed stud walls and I taped and mudded the seams. I chose a Ralph Lauren crackle finish in claret over gold, broken up by rectangular panels of solid gold metallic latex paint. There are much better quality metallic latex paints available now but I was stuck with Lauren's product at the time. It had so little pigment for coverage that I had to resort to scanning a sample of that gold and have them mix up a flat, solid color to use as a base first. That saved many, many applications of the thin and expensive metallic paint later.

Once the entirety of walls had been coated in the opaque base and then with the metallic gold, I marked off sections to be left as gold panels and applied the crackle-effect medium to the rest. Drying time and thickness on the crackle base coat was critical before applying the top coat of claret paint - OMG, I had never been so pressed and stressed with a paint job in my life - the one armed paper-hanger was blessed by comparison!

We decided to go with a textured wallpaper on the ceiling. As someone with that experience under his belt once said "Hanging wallpaper on a ceiling is the ultimate test of team work and ANY relationship!" As with many challenges, amazingly, we survived it in our own odd way and went on to paint it in a flat grocery bag beige but Terry came into his own with the final touches. With his six and a half feet of height, he was able to apply metallic gold to the raised highlights with a hard roller without the aid of any ladder or milk crate. The same task would have taken me three times as long by having to move around height aids, interrupted by frequent trips to the chiropractor for stirring up old whiplash injuries.

It's a shame that these textured wall coverings have all but disappeared now. They were the poor man's substitutes for the traditional Anaglypta and Lincrusta papers from eighty to one hundred years ago. These modern papers were also so much easier to work with since any traditional embossed papers could easily flatten out and stretch if you were not quick in setting them in place once they were wet. This new style was ingeniously made by applying a layer of thermally expanding foam on a flat sheet and very, very hard to mess up while applying. And all you needed was patience, imagination and a hard roller to create some incredible color effects. You could even paint the wall rolls and borders as they lay on a table before hanging them. I truly lament their decline.

Next, we installed full thickness solid oak flooring. Rather than hammer slam it in with nails as is the standard, we carefully pre-drilled each piece and used small-headed Roberts (square drive) screws to secure each piece to the floor. There wouldn't be any loosening and squeaking in OUR wood floors! I finished off the floor with a light golden oak oil stain and let it dry and harden a long time before the final urethane finish.
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Then I started on the wood work. I was determined to break up the look of the old windows into something that looked more like two smaller windows side by side. I made grills (faux muntin bars) for each glass panel and devised a larger frame separating the halves of each window. I band-sawed out Gothic ornaments for the corners of each and a friend sawed out opaque cathedral glass for each quatrefoil cut-out. All the woodwork would be made with off-the-rack pine lumber to keep the price down. I had picked up a set of molding cutters for my table saw at a yard sale (dirt cheap!) and that supplied the incised cuts to take the lumber beyond the mundane.
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Later on, I added material window coverings for more softness and privacy. Walmart's reasonably priced crushed velvet stock at Christmas supplied the swags and I bought an airy gold metallic material to sew up into sheers.
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And, finally, the lethal spiral staircase was tamed! The now solid surrounding walls were nearly a foot taller (to preclude any absent-minded perching of posteriors) and the corners were cut-off to regain some floor space at this upper level. These solid walls were also a great place to hang more theme decor to ponder as you descended into 'the well'.

As I noted previously, between the oddities I had already amassed and was able to rework along with the items which showed up at yard sales, auctions and retail sales as we went, we were able to redo and furnish this room on the relative cheap. There really is something to be said for your own determination, patience and faith in your own abilities; if you don't count the labor of our own hands, we had less than $1,200 in the make-over of this room, from the materials in the room itself to all the fun furnishings and trappings.

Well, I guess the whole point of this tour was really to explain why I am so plagued by angst with the prospect of hiring outside labor to help me now. Oh, if only I had the strength and stamina I had thirty years ago, I would do it all by myself rather than tempt the unknown for disappointments.
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Unintended Turkey Pets

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About a month ago, I became owner of the two 'querkey turkeys shown above. No, not in my wildest dreams did I ever fancy owning turkeys some day. But W&G needed feed money and their turkey buyers had not shown up as promised so ... well, you get the idea. I said I would buy the two above since they are supposed to be native to New Mexico but don't ask me what they are called because I've already forgotten as I do with so many details lately. They are all too old and tough for dinner and they may or may not be young enough to even produce offspring. Just consider them corn-burning welfare pets as I do. The Katlady might at least get some good feathers for her costume projects.
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Now meet Hannah (above). Okay, so she might not be a classic good-looker unless you are another turkey but she at least has a personality and has become my turkey pet number 3 and my favorite homely bird.
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It all started when W&G asked me if I would feed their remaining critters here one day. Hey, I'm willing to try anything once so I marched out to the two pens after Gayle gave me instructions on who gets what quantity of cracked corn, etc. The first enclosure held assorted ducks, chickens and MANY flying rats (W&G call them pigeons) which flapped around with horrendous noise and air currents in front of my face as I tried to dole out corn in many small piles. It soon became obvious that any orderly distribution of feed was lost in the flap and I retreated after flinging the remainder of the corn in a broad pattern as cover fire.

The turkey pen was a little more civil although they have a number of pigeons, these are a racing breed, in there as well. Have I already mentioned that I really don't care for pigeons? It has something to do with Terry and I once donning surplus Israeli gas masks and ascending into a 120 degree barn loft to shovel a hundred or so pounds of pigeon guano out the second story window, guano laced with histoplasmosis which had nearly killed the pigeon owner who left that mess of crusty turds and bird skeletons in situ. But that is another story from another time.
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I didn't know her name (or that she even had one) at the time but when I told Wayne about the unusually tame white hen turkey who had let me pet her incredibly soft white plumage in return of a heads-in first dibs on the corn and later went wild over the black banana which I had sliced up skin and all, he told me all about Hannah. She had been a spoiled pet until she got huffy when the fellow didn't share part of his lunch with her as was customary. She thrashed and clawed him about the head in a vicious tantrum. W & G ended up with her and had let her have free run of the yard until she also attacked Gayle who was innocently milking goats at the time. Gayle said that Hannah became a regular penned turkey from that very day forth. They noted that Hannah had lost a lot of that rude-itude once she was demoted to joe average yard bird and forced to keep the company of other turkeys but that she still has her testy moments.
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Above is Hannah working on an attitude. They warned me to watch for this telltale sign of blustering and puffing up. The advice was well taken and I left the coop immediately after taking this photo. My face and limbs had endured enough fang and claw attacks that I have little interest in tempting fate.

After I told Wayne about Hannah's mad obsession with banana slices, he rechristened her "Hannah Banana". That name is a definite keeper.
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A friend sent me a collection of cute critters expressing various sentiments. I liked this one the best:
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Snow, Pigs and Slackers

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We finally got a snowfall that stayed around more than a day. The usual for this new place has been an inch, maybe slightly more, but it melted away the next day. This is the third day after and it is all pretty much still there. Fortunately, I had decided to make the bi-weekly supply trip as the clouds were beginning to press in over the far northern mountain ranges. I called it close enough that the snow started coming down while I was only 4 miles from home but an inch of snow had already fallen by the time I got the truck unloaded. It would be a fine night to try out the wood-burning stove for coziness. Just the day before, Red had stopped out on his monthly rounds and spotted a wood seller on our way back from a lunch outing. Within two hours, the man had delivered a New Mexican cord of wood (one a little shy of the genuine 4x4x8 full cord I am more familiar with and considerably more expensive and one composed of soft wood that any self-respecting Northerner would consider unburnable). At that rate and price, I doubt it will save any substantial money on heating but we will just have to wait and see. In the meantime, it is a great incentive to fussy around with the vacuum cleaner more than I have been. Time is not so kindly that I have forgotten the ever-present ash dust and bark rubble nor hauling in 300 pounds of good red oak (at 100 pounds to a sling-full) each evening to heat a three-story Victorian. We would have gone through this pile of NM wood in about a week!
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Above: one lone gray barn cat on a mission in the new snow.
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Above: three fours-leggers hoping that I emerged from the warmth to bring hay. Sorry, not my table. Wayne & Gayle still show up every day or two to feed their remaining stock here. I feed their eight barn cats and, very thankfully, that's the extent of it.
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Go figure, we finally get some real winter weather and the cranes decide to head to the Northwest today, by the hundreds! I was able to catch photos of them thanks to Brou's 'heads up' bark. He's been a little put off by the lack of low flying military aircraft that we both loved to see out at the ranch so migrating birds will have to do for excitement now.
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Above: W&G getting ready to lure those greedy little pigs from their pen with a bucket of cracked corn.

The previous Saturday was a great day for progress. W&G showed up with a borrowed trailer to move the pigs (4 each) to their new place. They had already relocated two dozen goats but I reminded them that I considered removal of those pigs as the main priority. These creatures offended my sense of decorum on a regular basis, especially after the introduction when they flicked blobs of pig dung on my scarce 'go to town' clothes. And I grew to resent their crucial role in putting off most previous interest I had in pork products with an overwhelming raft of indelible visual, audio and olfactory impressions.

Now I can hardly wait for them to remove the Angora rabbits plus the old Morgan stud who is creating vast ponds of urine and hard matter in the stalls which I need in order to store our unsheltered lumber. They did clean out most of their belongings in the big out-building last week but the cold weather will keep me from moving much of the 45' trailer contents into it until Spring. With Wayne's long needed surgery now scheduled for the 15th, they have a lot on the plate to finalize before his long convalescence hits home.
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Strictly a W&G Service Announcement: Anyone interested in buying a 1954 Chevy dump truck project for 2 grand? I like having this classic bit of New Mexico yard art around but they are short on cash right now, even more so than usual. If you leave me your contact info in a comment, I won't publish it but will pass the info on to W&G.

It looks like I might be a little scarce on new posts until summer. It's not that there isn't plenty of news to share but that I am going to need more time to organize, settle and deal with the many, many pressing legalities and business that the hired guns have not. It's a hideously daunting prospect that has caused the stress levels to build up to panic levels. The few pros that I have hired have only increased the stress by doing jack - what this here country needs is a one-stop bonded service for the bereaved which takes care of every daunting matter quickly and properly while hand-holding and reassuring. If there is such a service, I certainly haven't found it but rather a vast and confusing a la carte menu of nose-pickers supreme. It is heavily tainting and retarding the progress and enthusiasm for this new place and this new uninvited and unwelcomed life. Wish me luck ... at this rate, I will most certainly need it!
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Merry Christmas!

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Hoping you have a great Christmas!
(just don't forget whose birthday party it is)
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A peaceful morning of first snow out at the ranch.
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Snow falling at the new place today (as viewed from the back steps).

And thank you so much to Cat and his wife for the Christmas dinner invitation! But the weather outside is frightful ... the critter food supply's delightful! Let it blow, let it hail, let it snow!
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Working in the latest coal mine

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Progress on the new place has nearly ground down to a complete stop but I will show you what I had managed to date.
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Office (before): This was the first room to eventually empty out. And since I needed an office and place for the computer as a priority, it was my first project. Note the four strange marks on the floor that form a square. These are from an old trunk with broken casters which rested at the foot of their bed. According to the half to three quarter inch deep gouges in the subfloor, it had been moved everyday to make the bed. It took almost an entire tub of Elmer's wood filler to fill the gouges back up to level and could only be done a little at a time in thin layers. The cleaning, prep and caulking needed before fresh paint was considerable to do a proper job. Although not my preferred window style, the windows were of a reasonable quality and now slide easily and lock after a thorough cleaning and maintenance session.
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Office (better): Although this rooms still needs proper window framing and trim and a chair rail in natural wood stains, it is comfortable enough for now. The vibrant gold on the top of the walls tells me that I have lost my old ability to judge a wall color from a small paint chip. I was looking for something in a very warm and creamy French vanilla - and this wasn't it! But close enough for now since I dread having to cut in a new top color. It felt so good to finally have an office space of my own again since so many pressing matters had been languishing in moving boxes. I'm STILL trying to catch up.

Note for the Katlady: Does the dark oak office chair look familiar? It is your dad's infamous GDAPC (butt-pinching chair) that he had fallen out of love with when the seat plank split and pinched him right proper.
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Guest Room (before): Here is what the eventual guest room looked like for a couple of months after buying the place. Apparently not a lot of packing progress occurred while I was coincidentally left stranded out at the Rat. Okay, as you can start to imagine, the place did not 'show well' while on the market. It saddens me that they left a lot of money on the table for lack of even rudimentary sprucing up but that ain't my problem. Even if they were not palaces, the houses I have sold in the past were always intriguing crowd pleasers, always surprising jaded realtors on getting a good or better than expected price in a quick turn-over time.
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Guest Room (better): Yes, Phlegmmy, one day hopefully soon, this will be the official guest room with an antique brass bed and some golden oak dressers. For now, it is home to the big Eastlake walnut bed until I can start on the main bedroom in the slightly bigger back room. It felt SOOO good to have a real bed after a few months of just the mattress on the floor of another room and my creaking knees thank me daily without fail. Also, Daisy the amazing hair throwing dog had decided that a mattress at dog level was simply divine but I was not as taken with that bed-share arrangment at all.
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Living Room (before): As you have probably guessed already, this was the state of the living room when I finally arrived. Mind you, I was grateful to see that our Chesterfield had been moved in and covered with heavy moving blankets (left side of photo). I realized just how important the moving blanket coverings were when I saw one of their Corgis hike its leg on my antique copper boiler stored off to one side, adding a little unwelcomed patina to the copper. Their cats might have committed other unmentionable affronts to the leather Chesterfield as well without the coverings. I slept on it for the first two nights until the burlap got very old. That's when Wayne helped me move enough of the heavy furniture in one room to make room for a mattress on the floor. Hardly the Ritz but a vast relative improvement.
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Living Room (better): Here is the room after I had managed to remove about one quarter of the heavily soiled carpet and deal with the critter urine affronts before giving the exposed sublfoor a quick coat of paint to seal in the past. Only a few of our furnishings are present until I finish removing the carpet entirely. I had wanted to have oak floors installed throughout but that might be fantasies too lofty unless the stock market recovers. So, in the meantime, wood filler and off-the-rack Wally World floor paint might have to make do. At least it is progress.


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Happy Thanksgiving!

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Watch This Space!

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Today I have come to the conclusion that I will continue to live the ongoing half-life for some time to come so I will take a sabbatical from this blog to the end of October or longer. I wanted so badly to show you the photos of the new place but do not wish to impose on Gayle and her computer any more than I have to. The three of us are getting along remarkably well considering that we were bought together in the course of fate and an otherwise standard real estate transaction but we are all looking forward to the day when we can re-establish two separate nests once more. We are all living and working in the rug canyons between piles of full moving boxes, both theirs and mine. It sort of reminds me of once living in the Katlady's boarding house in a huge brick Victorian ... well, except that she had no intention of moving anywhere at the time.

Wayne is doing the classic frantic rush to get the heavy and nasty jobs done at their new place before his surgery next week and Gayle is doing the related fruitless fretting and damage control. The good news is that I have convinced Gayle to start a blog about their new start-from-bare-earth homestead. She writes very well and will have plenty of stories about their shoe-string adventures as they develop. All I have to do now is remind her to take her camera along, right Mushy?

As with our long down times at the ranch, my imagination has been in high idle with all the possibilities and potential here. All must be planned around the recent market tank and a new tight budget in mind now. Lots of bang-for-the-buck projects on the slate so watch this space come November! Red's uber-geek son promised to come through for me with something reliable in the way of a computer system and then I will be back in full blog force! Hopefully he will also be able to retrieve all the cool unpublished photos which I had taken previously on the ranch. .


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Made It Out of the Canyonlands!

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This is a short update just to let you know that we finally made it out of the canyonlands on Monday. I am on a borrowed sticky keyboard which has knocked my typing words per minute back down to my old high school levels of a negative rating after subtracting for mistakes.

It was a long day for Steve, Vicky, myself and all the fur critters, a VERY long day. They had set off at 4AM from Albuquerque for our last day of moving and were ready to kick butt for one last mission and it was a full-out, non-stop mission. And I was dreading that last long look around so badly; my supply of stress adrenaline depleting rapidly now after three months nonstop. The fur family was the last to be loaded up, followed by Terry's cowboy hats on the headrest and his shoes on the passenger side of my Dakota although barfing Ms. Daisy would ride shotgun with me, too. True to form and despite a dose of Dramamine, she performed one very colorful flash of stomach contents before setting down which I have still not addressed. I would like to vegetate for a full week or so after yesterday's emotional exodus.

They led with Terry's big Ram diesel pulling the red 16 footer across the washes and down the choppy and often deeply sandy roads at a snail's pace since we had packed the last of the Rat's contents hurriedly and much less professionally than Wayne had done. Two hours later, we reached the highway and I had managed to stop long enough along the way to each back and wrestle a number of aspirin from the box beside the yowling cats' crates and the disturbing ailments subsided reasonably by the time we reached pavement. Then the pace picked up considerably. Even so, we were all exhausted by the time we arrived at the new place. Once essential critter comforts were addressed, it was time to quietly sit in a stunned and breathless manner for the rest of the evening with good and jovial company.

Hopefully, I will be back within a week; right now, I just need to sleep a little and then adjust to a reality long postponed.
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Still here ... Part 2

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Sigh, Babzy's right with her last comment; it's been a whole week without an update. I was doing pretty well for a while but the last two weeks have seen a rapid decline in my health and I have been getting very little done as a result. New moving rescue plans have come and gone like the passing of the sun out here. And I just can't write all I wish to when I am this down on all levels.

Mind you, the day started out with a pleasant surprise. Brou and Daisy got me up at dawn to let them out (which is not a pleasant event for a non-morning person) but when I opened the door, we startled two mule deer grazing 30 feet away. The dogs could not have been more pleased and spun themselves into a yapping, yiping torrent of blurred fur which soon disappeared in a fruitless pursuit. I briefly thought about all the hunters out here in the canyons this weekend for the mule deer hunt who just spent the night shivering in tents and I gleefully dove back into the still pleasantly warm bed.

The latest plan calls for moving help tomorrow but I am not really prepared for it in any way. I am just feeling gawd-awful physically sick right now. If we do get the latest kinks worked out, if they do arrive and if we do get the place finally packed up, I will be off-line until probably some time in October unless I make it over to Red's to borrow his computer for an update. We'll just have to play that by ear, I guess. It may take a while but I will be back as soon as I can.
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Still Here .... Sigh

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Yep, I am still here. This weekend was supposed to be "Moving, Part 2" but it didn't happen. I won't say that I wasn't upset when I found out after 5PM on Friday when it was too late to call around for other resources. It was pretty devastating news, in fact, after thinking that this one source of great stress had been covered. And, had I known just a day earlier, I could have stocked up with the bigger bag of dog food, more generator gas and beer at least. As it was, I blew my back out on that supply run so I had little to lose pain-wise by lugging greater quantities of supplies at the time. But Wayne was not in great health to begin with, tried his best for me and will undergo surgery for possible bladder cancer on Tuesday, right as their own plans for a new homestead get underway. I will have to write about his trials after he left here late last Sunday with the big trailer - never a dull moment, I tell you. They are both great people and have their own plate full to overflowing right now - please send them your best thoughts, too.

After a week of threatening thunderstorms, this weekend was as weather-perfect as I could have hoped and prayed for; cool with absolutely cloudless blue skies. It's definitely the beginning of Fall in the high desert here with the temperatures falling into the 30s at night and rising into the comfortable 70s during the day. I am feeling very guilty about prolonging our exodus since the gas field, the road maintainers and the BLM have been so generous and committed to keeping these roads passable for my departure. Please send your thoughts and prayers in keeping the washes and creek dry until I can find new help with the last of the move out.

I will start calling around today in earnest to find suitable work-arounds to complete this move. One part is hopefully already in motion thanks to Virgil. He and Jenny came out yesterday with a buyer for the big welder so that is one less heavy item to find trailer space for or worry about leaving to the inevitable scavengers. He was feeling awfully bad that his own truck is laid up but he has come through for me like the ultra dependable friend he always was to Terry and I. If all is going well today, he has hitched a ride into Albuquerque and will be driving Terry's big Ram and the gooseneck trailer back out here for the next reload. Red will be flying out to a B52/tanker reunion shortly so I can't rely on his calm-under-fire logistical thinking this week but everything will work out according to some big but seemingly nebulous plan for the best ... of that, I have no doubt.

This is just a quick update in the midst of vast uncertainty so no need to leave a comment this time - I know you are all still here with me and it's truly keeping me going. Hopefully the next update will be done from the far end of this new journey.
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Moving Away from Our Dream, Part 1

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Firstly, I want to thank our blog friends who have stuck by me even though I have not been making my rounds of my favorite old blog haunts since 'that day'. Hopefully I will be settled in to a largely different, somewhat daunting new life alone by October. Can I say that I am looking forward to it? No, I will not lie to you; the prospect embraces practical reasons more than anything right now and little more. The best friend I ever had is gone now but I am trying my best to move forward, as much for the well-being of our fur family as anything. I was doing quite well, in fact until a cascade of events on Sunday caught me off guard emotionally. But let's get on with the moving tales since some incredible people had intervened to help get the dreaded move progressed to this point. The number of widely divergent folks who have helped with this move has left me in awe, a needed reinforcement of my faith in humanity. You, our blog friends, have been a crucial part of this transition as well.

Red and Wayne arrived last Thursday in Red's venerable little Jeep. We really didn't get much accomplished that day; it was more a time for exchanging tales and settling in and to eat a good dinner, the first real effort that I had cooked up since Terry left. It was a necessary gentle lead-in to the hectic days to soon follow.

Friday saw the beginning of the packing up even though we all enjoyed stopping to chat far too much. It was still a good and appropriate pace that kept me from stressing out emotionally. I only had one particularity bad moment that day when we had to look for something in the bed of Terry's truck. His truck, his skid steer; those are particularly haunting since I still see him so clearly in both and his big cat-like grin of satisfaction as he commandeered them. I thought Red hadn't noticed that I collapsed into tears before I could jump down from the tall bed of the Ram but he returned shortly. By then, I was standing on the Rat porch and so we both sat down on the steps, his arm around my shoulder, his other hand grasping mine tightly. He had been there before, he remembered the pain and understood how I was feeling all too well. He said "It's okay, you are going to have these times. Don't avoid them, let them happen, it's absolutely normal." I hope you all have a friend like that if the seemingly unbearable happens some day.

On Saturday, our extra help arrived. I was hoping for just a couple of young and brawny lads to help us aging, creaking old farts with the lifting and loading. What we got instead was two full truckloads of help. I only regret that I was too frazzled to remember to take a photo of the second truck with the five young lads.
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Above is a photo of our friends, Dan and Virginia and their family. Like the five young lads, they are from the local Mennonite community. We had met them through ordering the two new buildings for our new Rat Town dream. Dan had not only helped me out with making other plans for the two buildings which they had already built but not delivered but also arranged for the brawn for loading day. We could not have gotten as far as we did without their serene and obliging help. And I have never been more impressed with a religious group than I was with all my dealings with the Mennonites; they walk the talk like none other that I've ever dealt with. If Terry and I had ever decided to commit to a particular sect, it would have been them, no doubt about it. I will hopefully write more about our dealings with these lovely, non-judgmental people some day when I am settled in as well as all the other folks who came to the fore in this unexpected new life drama. They all deserve mention and credit. As promised, even the road out was fixed well enough to accommodate rolling the big 45' trailer out of our canyon. I will take a photo of that effort for you if I can in the next week.
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Sunday morning: Here is the tractor of the kindly neighbor hooked up to the 45' trailer. This was a particularly emotional time for me, seeing this original container of our surviving life's belongings being readied to vacate our dream land. Terry's Ram is jump charging the trailer's lift-gate battery.

Above; Red , Wayne and John are clearing out the debris which had grown in around the 45 footer in the last three years ... there was a lot of it, too. Everything that was settled and comfortable was now being uprooted, much like our dream.

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I will write more about the big move but, for now, I am depleted. Sunday was a draining day emotionally and my immune system predictably collapsed. There were so many things left to be done here but I am not up to it physically now. Yes, I stayed behind with the fur family, awaiting the return of at least one trailer emptied for we ran out of trailer space in deed. And I did not want to leave the Rat in this state of utter mess and chaos. I also wanted time for the fur family and myself to adjust for a few days before the next and final phase. Leaving the dream behind so abruptly, so traumatically, was simply not an option despite the threat of new wet weather. It will work out, we will be fine ... not to worry, okay? A thunderstorm just rolled in - time to shut down the generator and unplug it from the Rat. Daisy just bowled me aside and dove under the desk as is customary. But we will all be fine, I'm not kidding.
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Racing the Rains Home

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I had planned to show you intriguing photos of the ghosts of metal victims of the running washes but this was probably my worst emotional week since Terry died. I had been carefully avoiding anything that might trigger the worst of the sorrow that I knew I could not deal with yet since the stress and the upset of this rapidly approaching move from our canyon will certainly provoke its own lion's share. That didn't work out as planned however. So, instead, I will share photos with you of our access road condition which weighs so heavily on me right now after last night's rains.
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The rain had mostly held off for my three solo trips out of the canyon. And other than seeing this odd bird (above) on Friday which appeared almost double-winged, the trip in went well and without too many excitements other than the usual one or two oncoming vehicles sliding into sudden view from blind corners at impressive speeds. An adrenaline rush trumps coffee any day for waking up fast and fully.

This necessary trip on Friday let me almost beat the storms home. I had made it across the creek and was only a mile away from the Rat when the skies dumped their full load suddenly. I could now see the Rat and picked up the pace, fish-tailing a little here and there on the newly slick dirt. Having picked up Virgil's bed full of moving boxes, I didn't want to dally in the deluge any longer than necessary and heaved a long sigh of relief when the Dakota finally dove under the shelter of the barn's tin roof. Good, only the top layer of boxes had been soaked so I now ran to the Rat in my favorite go-to-town moccasins through the mud slime. I should have brought my tall rubber boots with me, I knew better than to leave them at home, in fact. At least I had remembered to bring a flashlight and a roll of toilet paper just in case. You will only need the items you don't remember to bring - it's another quirky law of the wilderness.

I jettisoned the mud-caked shoes on the porch and all dogs and cats were on deck to witness me blow through the door and collapse breathlessly into my wing chair. They had been very good, not leaving me any 'chocolates' of desperation to deal with. The five of us just sat quietly listening to the thunder and the roar of rain on the Rat's tin roof. Then it subsided unexpectedly within a half hour and the dogs were able to go out to execute their withheld duties with exuberance. I was just thankful that this sudden but short-lived downpour might not force the creek to run that day.
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The creek had been a major, ongoing source of concern for us this year since its meandering course had begun to claw away ruthlessly at two sections of our road in. It had been narrow but sturdy and nicely passable upon our arrival here three years ago although the man who moved the Rat in for us had noted that we lucked out in buying a 14' wide trailer and not a 16' wide one because of those narrow road widths.
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This photo was taken during this last dry spell, well before Sunday night's downpours. I don't have the heart to drive down there to see what's left of the road today. News, good or bad, will reach me soon enough.
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So call me a wimp but I don't like the thought of having a section of road collapse beneath me as I am driving over it, especially when it's a long way down to the creek below. It could ruin your sterling insurance rates in a hurry. I find it even more disconcerting when it involves a heavy vehicle full of your treasured and often irreplaceable belongings piloted by even more irreplaceable friends. The water haulers announced last week that they would no longer let their tanker drivers cross this section of road. This news did not impart a warm and fuzzy feeling to me at all.

We have planned the big move for this coming weekend. This might just be my biggest unofficial heart stress test coming up. Please keep us all in your best thoughts and prayers this week.
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Made It Home Safely

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Once the critter sitters were briefed on the quirks of our off-the-grid arrangements, getting ready to leave the canyon by myself for the first time was the hardest part of my journey. It seemed foreign and completely unnatural. And in the back of my mind, I fretted about the Dakota's acceleration once I reached pavement. That pack rat's nest episode in the engine compartment coincided with my gut feel that I had been robbed of genuine speed and I thought that maybe some obstruction was restricting the gas pedal movement. These dirt roads don't allow for an acceleration test beyond 35 miles an hour and only briefly at that unless you want to slam down hard and then launch yourself aloft in one of the many deep key-ways in these dirt roads. Both of us had incurred headliner bruises and nearly worn the heavy Ranch Hand bumper grill like braces from previous feats of bravado and brain farts out here on these weather-pocked roads. And I had only vague recollections of the directions to get out of the canyons when heading south.

I loaded up all the documents, clothes and gas cans that I needed and just hoped that I wasn't forgetting something ... which I did anyway. Turning the ignition key was one of the hardest things I had ever forced myself to do; I felt like I was abandoning Terry (Mark), our dreams and our fur friends in horribly callous ways. Concentrating on the rough roads for the next 25 miles helped soften that tension and remorse. I eventually eased up beside the old Indian trading post and hit it out on to the highway. "Hitting it" brought forth disappointing results. For the next couple of hours, I was mortified at being passed going up hill by semis at 45 mph. It was going to be a long drive so I poked the radio seek button and found but one station, a country western venue, and the miles droned by. And I felt so alone. Then a song called "Remember When" came on. It is a bittersweet, lilting, slow lovers' waltz and gentle kind of piece with lines like "... we won't be sad, we'll be glad, for all the times we had ... remember when ..." And for the first time since Terry died, I started to sob quite uncontrollably; no one but me in the truck, no critters and friends to be strong and stoic for, just me alone on this quiet four lane highway. I looked over through my dappled vision to my right and reached out to pat and grasp Terry's leg affectionately, just as he had done so many times before when I was riding shotgun. But in reality, I now knew that I was truly alone in this stark and beautiful desert, that landscape which we both fell in love with not that long ago. It still held its rugged but scarred beauty proudly; it's defiant cliffs bleeding from exposed slashes of incredible colors. I would have to be like those cliffs we loved so much now - stubborn and defiant. I was suddenly snapped out of my lost thoughts when I noticed traffic overtaking me and wiped blindly at my clouded eyes lest they somehow see my heartbreak and I repeatedly stabbed my soft-moccasined foot hard into the gas pedal to no avail.

I survived the drive through Albuquerque on the interstates without acceleration capabilities quite nicely. In any other major city, I might have been slaughtered in the rush of commuters going 30 mph faster but not here. Perhaps that is why we loved this place; it wasn't unnecessarily frantic and fast 'just because'. After climbing their mountain highway at an eye-burning 35 mph, I pulled into Red and Sally's just before supper and it was like joyously arriving home again from a very tough trek.

With their help and encouragement, we got a lot of necessary things done that week and we had some fun as well. And when they retired each night, I would remove to the guest apartment on the second floor of the building next door. I guess I needed that time alone and away from the ranch and the rest of the world to sit out on the deck, to look up at the skies, to pretend that Terry was seated beside me on that rough bench and to talk with him about many things unsaid up until then. And to cry, to cry deeply when there was no one else around - neither friends or creatures to hear and be further disturbed and hurt by my laments. As I gazed up into the skies, I would sometimes be pelted by sporadic rains crying down to join my tears, sometimes see shooting stars etch short but dazzling paths across the firmament, just as Terry had done. I had so desperately needed that quiet time of reconciliation, of putting this horrendous but unavoidable new reality into some sort of perspective.

The days flew by far too fast but we accomplished many things and the three of us found a couple of new and special friends in the process as a delightful bonus. It looks like I will be taking over their small farmstead in September if all goes as planned. Better still, Wayne was a professional mover for years and I can hire him to help pack and load up our belongings at the ranch. Since they are both of the same breed as Terry and I were for collecting odd-ball and sometimes heavy funky stuff, I doubt I could have found a better person to orchestrate the move. Yes, a small light has started to shine on what needs to be done before winter sets in and more pegs are falling into place now. I am so thankful, not only for this break in that onslaught of disasters but for your thoughts and prayers in getting me this far. We are starting to get somewhere now ... finally!
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I'll Be Back!

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Just a heads up to let you know that I, God willing and the creek don't rise, will be heading into the big city this week to look at possible alternative homes a little closer to civilization for the remainder of our Rat pack. It still has to be rural, no half acre lot will do now that we have lived out here in solitude and loved it so completely. Hopefully many necessary things will be accomplished during this, my second trip out of our canyon this year. It would appear that the 2nd nearest neighbors have come to the rescue by finding me a critter sitter (including the guy's ex!?) for this event. This still may beat having to battle Ms. Daisy (the extreme travel barfer) to get her into the truck and drop her off elsewhere. Please wish me luck in every way on this venture ... I am SO severely jaded on melodrama.

Red will just have to wait a little longer to find out just what he said and did during our unplanned but most excellent wake for Terry up at Slim's Cowboy Hotel. You bet, we did it up in the most fine of Irish traditions possible all right.

Remember; I may be off-line for a while so your comments may not show up for a bit.
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First Cavalry Arrives Again

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Reality Warning: Philosophical material to follow
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As I watched their taillights disappear over the last visible far away stretch of our canyon road at dusk, I realized that I had never taken their photograph and I sighed heavily in regret. Now I could only hope that Virgil and Jen's return trip home was safe and uneventful. They had brought me desperately needed supplies without hesitation and even though I still have no means of paying them. This was their second trip into our far boonies. They had already come to the rescue within two days of Terry's passing, being there as both family and friends to quietly share in trying to make sense of this unfathomable turn of fate.

This post is for Connie, Virgil's mom. In her many caring and encouraging e-mails, and like so many of you, she has worried about my predicament alone out here and she lamented not being able to help, wondering what she might be able to offer in this very challenging time. Connie, you have helped in more ways than you could ever imagine; you have shared your son with me - so I thank you, deeply and from the heart.

Virgil came to us from the gas field. He came to us via their good neighbor policy but stayed to become our loyal friend throughout this and so many toughest of times. He did not abandon us when fate transferred him so far away from us either. So many people who cross your path in brilliant comet-like colors will fade away quickly when circumstance and convenience change; he did not. Nor did his equally sincere wife, Jenny. If you can count such people as friends on even one hand at the very end of your life, you have been extraordinarily blessed. I feel as though my two hands are full and am now running out of toes to tabulate such blessings. This is what keeps me going when unseen influences do their best to beat me down to my knees and shove my face into the dirt as they have tried so many times before. And as long as I can feel even a small amount of a goodness and love in mankind, I will keep fighting that good but often discouraging fight. I may retreat into the solitude of my aerie when the sum of events become too burdensome but I bring your caring with me as a balm for heart wounds which might otherwise prove fatal. We all bear the responsibility for mankind's future by caring for others in genuine and selfless ways ... don't drop the ball and then point a lamenting finger at the rest of the world. For all we know, there may be a scale of planetary proportions with a preset point waiting for the day when just one good soul dying away will be enough to set the cogs of our fate into reverse.

That was my big philosophical rant; thank you for indulging me. With any luck and blessing, I will be back to the utterly mundane shortly. In the meantime, get defiant and fight your own good fight; never let them get you down for long because rising from your knees to victory is the finest of life's wines that you will ever taste and remember. If I can do it, so can you - don't ever, EVER forget that.
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A Techno Heads Up

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Here is my warning that my may be cut off from on-line activity soon. This is my new joy for the day apparently as this computer, Terry's, is starting to act up and shut-down. Since mine lost its on-line ability the night before Terry died, when this one goes, I will vanish without warning. Bear that in mind, please.

The cluster bung continues unabated and I have never seen so many dropped balls in my life. With the exception of a couple of folks, the expression "If there is anything we can do to help ..." is one not meant to be seriously redeemed. And some help adds more stress than alleviates it. Still no word on when our access road might be repaired and made passable again after last week's horrendous rains and run-off. So far a no-show on the folks who promised to pick up my empty propane tanks and gasoline cans and deliver them to Virgil who will eventually perform a supply run. If the propane runs out, I will lose the freezer full of elk meat and other foods. If the gasoline runs out, no more generator electricity. Those supplies and the dog food will run out in less than a week ... hope the dogs don't get too much flatulence from eating thawed elk meat and the last of Terry's much loved ice cream. The diesel fuel tank was upended and fell off the stand in the BIG rain storm (the required containment tanks will float when immersed in a pool of flood waters - a brilliant idea). The water pump at the water tank died. Without the water pump, no bathing, no dish washing and the evaporative cooler will not work in this 90 degree heat spell so the fur friends and I just sit around swooning a lot, trying not to move at all. Aside from one night of sleep-over guests, it's been three weeks of being alone through the night and most of the days unless Earl stops by briefly on his well run. Hopefully the scumbags that stole Terry's ID have been finally stopped. And there are other upsetting, worrisome things that I care not to mention. There, that's just so I don't hear any "Hey, sounds like things are really coming together, babe, let's do lunch some time." Sorry if I sound unusually discouraged but July has sucked in record-breaking ways. Shall we see if August brings something better? Why not ... something has to give sooner or later ... and hopefully it won't be me. No comments needed on this one - hopefully I will be back soon with better news.
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One long Week Ago

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It's been one week now since Mark left us. His real name is Terry but when I started this blog, we were concerned about the weirdos and scumbags out there. Doesn't seem to matter as much any more. But we both had fun with it while it lasted and he always liked the name Mark. That was the point; to just have fun out here. Most of the wonderful folks we met over these past three years had 'nom de blog's and they were given the opportunity to choose the names they liked, too. Everyone seemed to enjoy that element of mischievousness. Try it yourself, you won't regret it. I'm not saying to ever do things which hurt other people because that is plain rude and selfish ... just have maximum harmless fun when you can. And laugh and make others laugh, as much as you can and while you are able because there are few other gifts as powerful and healing as laughter when times are not so good.

So many more twists and complications have developed in this last week but I am not yet able to write about them, not until some sense of closure comes home to our canyon. But soon Red will be here to help and comfort as he always has for so many.

Thank you, all of you, friends known and yet to be known, who stopped by to pay your respects and express a love and appreciation for Terry - we will not forget it. It has meant so much to all of us dealing with the loss of a great person and friend.
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I will be back - God willing and if the creek don't rise.
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Our End of the Trail

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If you have been following along on our trials in living out our dream, you may have caught my occasional subtle hint to get on with your dreams rather than wait until everything seems perfect. This corporeal world bound by time and fate doesn't always oblige a so-called perfect time.
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Yesterday marked the end of our dream when Mark died of a massive heart attack. In his very early 50s. Listen to me here ... his early 50s. There is more that I should write here but he left with half of my soul and the better part of this marginal heart of mine. I need to convince you that we don't really know how much time we have to pursue our dreams. Mark would have wanted me to make some good of his passing and I think this would best honor his way of turning disaster to something beneficial for others so I will be back. I don't know if it will be in a day or a month so have patience with me, okay? If I can't make it back, I will make sure that someone tells you so. In the meantime, DO NOT put off your dreams, start working towards them NOW. I know you will make Mark smile if you do.
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Note: I have always loved to reply to each and every comment but I don't think I have quite the heart to do so right now. Please forgive me.
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Also, if you happen to know of someone who has had a dream of trying what we did in this beautiful and unforgettable desert wilderness, let me know. I may be renting out our beloved homestead for a year or so while I try to make some sense of yesterday's unfathomable events. It might be a chance for genuinely good people with many sterling references but without enough money to buy a place like ours to try out their own dreams. If you leave a comment with contact info, I will not publish them to the blog.
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The Adirondacks of the High Desert

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Below: Previous seating experiments on the Rat's front porch. Sad at best.
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A) Having been through at least six of them, I can say that this configuration was by far our worst investment. Within a year, their fabric rips, their tubing and connectors break and you might incur bodily damage or possible sterilization depending on where and when they inevitably let loose. Land-fill cloggers. Don't even go there.

B) Unrestored chairs from the moving trailer. Don't wince - almost ALL the furniture in the Rat looked like that at one time. This Renaissance Revival survivor will look very different some day when I get a real shop back into my life. In the meantime, these long neglected relics might have a leg or a seat pan let loose at the most inconvenient moment, especially if you have that unforgivable habit of rocking back on their rear legs - ask any cowboy.

C) Yes, it's the ever versatile dairy crate again, ONLY called into play when more than one visitor showed up. But do note that it has a much better pattern for avoiding waffle-butt than the one shown in The Generation Wars.

D) Another desperate measure in porch seating. It might have surpassed the dairy crate but for one fatal flaw; notice that there is a molded-in hinge in the lid which is well offset to one side. It does not, therefore, match the God-given symmetry of the human buttocks. This will cause an never-ending shifting in hopes of finding a comfortable alignment. Somewhere in that process, you will find yourself radically off its safe center of gravity. At that point, if the container has been used to store the product well-used by felines, you will not only find yourself flat out on the porch but with a goodly amount of cat doodoo and litter covering you. So avoid this one if possible and resort back to option C if necessary. This one is safer being used as an end table.

Our visitors have all been incredibly good sports up to now but we didn't want to push the limits of their endurance so we recently hit the catalogs hard. Catalogs are another invaluable resource which you will rely upon heavily if you move to the middle of nowhere and I mean for far more than classic outhouse use. When a supply run involves half a day of commuting, you no longer have time to stop here or there to browse on the slight chance of finding the occasional non-staple items you desire.
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Tah-dah!!! . .In fear of calling the Southwest Decorum Squad down upon us, we compromised and ordered four chairs like the more mission-styled chair in the middle of the photo above and only two of the Adirondacks. They all showed up unassembled in flat cardboard cartons and the assembly was done easily without referring to the somewhat odd 'Engrish' on the single page instruction sheets.

What's nice about the center chair is that it comes without any finish so you can let it weather or apply stains, embarrassingly gaudy paints and stencils, whatever your heart's desire. We will eventually use them as outdoor dining chairs. While they look great, their one drawback is that, after sitting down, you realize that the arms are strangely low and therefore amazingly useless unless you happen to have the torso of a circus midget. The advantage of the low arms is that they will fit under a table much more easily and therefore save needed space when not in use. We found those on-line at Northern Tool.

It was the surprising comfort of the Adirondacks which blew us away. Before we moved here, I had the templates to make a fixed-position Adirondack chair which was famous for comfort back home. Even if those paper patterns had survived the move, the time and materials would have been more than these cost us; under $60 each on sale from Sportsman's Guide. These were equally well constructed but arrived with a clear finish. When I finished assembling the first one, I plunked myself down in it for a skeptical try out. I had sat in plenty of uncomfortable Adirondacks in the past but this one was immediately downright cozy and relaxing. If it hadn't been sitting out in the scorching noonday sun, I would have dozed off immediately.
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Southwest Soup For Sickly Souls

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I knew I was running late on this Friday post but just remembered that everyone else is out there barbecuing and playing with fireworks anyway.
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Happy Fourth of July!
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Sopa del Curandera

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Carteach lobbed a food wars volley in this direction. Unfortunately it struck the column of the walking wounded out here at the Rat. Mark is still recovering from 'whatever that was' and the fanciest food production I dared assail his stomach with was a medicinal soup, southwest style.

The idea was to make vast quantities of natural antibiotics seem palatable and this soup emerged. I never was a big soup fancier but even I liked this one. With the temperatures in the mid-90s to 100 degrees lately, you absolutely avoid using the oven for anything until the sun sets and the desert's cool nights return so this is a stove-top creation from start to finish.

The soup came into being as I stood there anally trimming out a tray of boneless, skinless chicken breasts. Since I am fussy about meat texture, I was busy removing any fat, tendons and mystery parts and placing those scraps into a sauce pan. I added a couple cups of water and let the whole thing simmer for a few hours, adding a good dash of Montreal Chicken Seasoning to the mix. I later strained the broth into a larger pan and the dogs and cats went nuts over the solids left in the strainer. No waste! Of course, you can avoid all that time, effort and being stared at by big brown eyes by cracking open a can of chicken broth and adding it to that large pan instead.

Then I finely diced six (yes, count 'em!) cloves of garlic, ran them through a crusher and added the entire aromatic mess to the big pot of broth and set the heat to a high simmer. The garlic is the major medicinal ingredient so don't skimp, the rest of the ingredients will help absorb its booming voice. The spice rack got raided and in went paprika, some taco seasoning, cumin, turmeric (another BIG illness fighter although it stains the chicken and your counters a bright yellow), juice of one lime, a dash of smoky marinade, a splash of white vermouth, ample ginger which would help break Mark's profound chills and what the heck - a chicken bullion cube for good taste measure. Then off to the pantry; one each 14-15 ounce can of diced tomatoes and black beans plus a small can of green chiles. Don't drain them, throw the contents in with all their juices.

I took a large onion (part of the medicinals) and cut it into 1/2 wide rings and then sliced those rings only in half. I wanted larger pieces of onion as you would traditionally find in French onion soup. Then I cut up two of the larger chicken breasts into cubes and very lightly browned them with the onions in butter (another mild antibiotic) in a large skillet. When done, I transferred this into the soup pot, turned down the soup pot heat to a low simmer and let it burble for a half hour. In the meantime, I sliced up both red and green bell peppers into roughly half inch squares. I added them to the soup pot only at the last five minutes of simmering so that they remained firm, colorful and so very slightly crunchy. I added a little water to bring up the volume and we managed to get six bowls (or two meals out of it) out of it.

We used round tortilla chips to scoop up chunks or crumbled them into the soup as you would crackers. Using them like crumbled crackers is a great way to use up the broken chips always found at the bottom of the bag and you get that pleasing corn taste and crunch in the process. Be well!
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I was going to post a review on the failures and victories of seating for the Rat's UV-drenched front porch but, since I am now running REALLY late for Friday's update, I will post that one on Monday or Tuesday. We finally found solid outdoor seating comfort at a reasonable price that you might like to try as well!
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Do na da go hv i, U na li i

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It's been a sad week for some of my blog friends. Mushy lost his high school friend, Danny, this week after a long battle with cancer. Moose lost his sweet mother just this morning. My sympathies, my dear friends ... I mean that sincerely.

It was only last night that I found our own sad news; a friend had left us as well. I have not replied to that e-mail yet but I will when I can find the needed words but first I must talk to her here.

She was given the name Vonda, a name which her mother told her was Tsalagi (Cherokee) for 'Child of the Morning'. And she was as bright and sparkling as a new sun rising with fresh, limitless possibilities. She befriended me when I signed up to do graphic art for the Main Street effort in an otherwise spiritless and cold village.

"Vonda, they laid you to that final rest today in a place so very far away from here. I was not by your side in the flesh but I was there anyway. The tears no longer easily fall from my eyes but they still rain within my heart, unseen but as ever sorrowful. I will miss you.

You were there to help before I could ever be shamed to ask in desperation. You gave your heart, time and most treasured belongings to anyone you met. And you were forever hurt in a half dozen decades by takers and users but never let it stop you from giving. I wish I had your relentless faith in mankind, I really do. But I somehow fear that you were finally used up like the precious commodity that you were, that your big heart could no longer bear you aloft in this world.

You befriended me despite my many eccentricities. You adopted us as family. You never hid me from your famous, fancier and richer friends - your love had no earthly boundaries.

I can count the number of people I have met, admired and learned to trust on less digits than my fingers and toes. You took a place on one counting digit and it will likely remain reserved for you. Farewell, friend (Do na da go hv i, U na li i) ... I will miss you deeply until we meet again."
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I stared out the window today, a lot. And I saw an eagle circling, unusual since they had not been by in quite a while. I grabbed the camera with the zoom lens and threw open the window. Just as I was able to focus in on this visitor, it disappeared from view. I lowered the camera and scanned the skies intently for any trace of it. It was simply gone. Perhaps moved on to some freer, more effortless realm of flight as my Vonda did.
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Ads with Subtractions

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I'll admit it, my muse has left me for the moment. And not in a kindly parting either. She smacked me in the face, packed her stuff and slammed the screen door behind her. Okay, so maybe we don't have the screen door installed yet but you get the idea. I think it was all over Mark coming home VERY sick on Wednesday and showing no improvement since, despite already being on antibiotics! Out here in the middle of nowhere, especially when you have no health insurance, such things can be a worry. Tomorrow, the herbs and medicinals will be dragged out again to be brewed up in hearty measures of teas and soups.

In the meantime, I was at a loss to post what I had in mind so I rummaged through my files for inspiration and came up with these. It's all about advertising and these particularly annoying or confounding ads popped up in New Mexico. Do you ever come across ads which simply hit you the wrong way? And do you ever wonder if they did that on purpose?
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This one REALLY grates on me. Maybe it's the message that this woman equates the ultimate proof of love with what material fluff a man can buy her. Whatever it is, I just want to catch Ms. Bad-smell-under-her-Nose bending over and plant a good and pointy-toed boot in her fanny SOOOO badly. Is it just me here? Too bad the image scan lost some of that irritating, nearly snarling snottiness though.
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. Mark was naturally the one to first point out this very disconcerting mixed message above. Here is a very purpose-built device which could make a fellow squirm on a good day and right there in the middle of the ad is a photo of a very appealing young lady. We just didn't 'get it' so we consulted with our professional cattleman, Slim. "Woooo (wince), well, I sure see where you're coming from on that one (wince), no doubt about it. Well, all's I can figure here is that the company owner has that pretty young daughter there and decided to get the message out real subtle-like, you know, while still taking a write-off as advertising." Hey, he's our expert in cowboy affairs and it sure beat any of our possible explanations.
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